hamster introduced this song to me last night

there’s a certain venerability about the unknown

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Every now

and then

I’m overcome by a feeling of

impending…

je ne sais quoi (not the pleasant kind but of the distressed type)

?!?!?!??!

Maybe I was born with it, or maybe it’s the caffeine!?

but good thing there’s a recipe for comfort:

  • a mug of perfectly warm chamomile tea
  • a mellow playlist of select songs from: (C)oldplay, alt-J, Laura Marling, Vampire Weekend, Alex Turner, First Aid Kit, Lily & Madeleine, Explosions in the Sky, Marmalakes, Regina Spektor, Frank Ocean, Little Joy, et al. (really)… 
  • best friends
  • words
  • *inhale* *exhale* [repeat]
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on my mind

designing/defining/creating one’s self, the concept of a long-term self and a short-term self, perceptions of self, (does that make me self-centered? is that bad? or should I just call this introspection?), what qualities do people adopt from their parents and what qualities are repulsed?, am I taking enough pictures of days? people? places? all of this? will I regret that in the future? will I regret anything?, perhaps the thing with regret is that regrets eventually fade depending on how the circumstances change?, autonomy, what warrants what someone “deserves”?, I haven’t drank in over a month! I think that’s the driest I’ve been since summer. whatta lifestyle, I have a fear that if I don’t practice thinking creatively and actively pursuing creative aspirations I will become progressively less capable of original thought and then eventually become a sad, uninspired person who is simultaneously math-challenged and artistically futile, today a best friend told me “everyone is awk" and "i think everyone is weird" and those are the two most true things I’ve heard all day, my thought is that there are different frequencies at which people think (and live) and sometimes some frequencies are unintelligible while other frequencies have an achingly clear and crisp signal. I don’t know. 

humansofnewyork:

"I wish I’d partied a little less. People always say ‘be true to yourself.’ But that’s misleading, because there are two selves. There’s your short term self, and there’s your long term self. And if you’re only true to your short term self, your long term self slowly decays."

humansofnewyork:

"I wish I’d partied a little less. People always say ‘be true to yourself.’ But that’s misleading, because there are two selves. There’s your short term self, and there’s your long term self. And if you’re only true to your short term self, your long term self slowly decays."

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I was exactly 2 years younger when I began this blog. Here is a cupcake. Pick a flavour. 

I was exactly 2 years younger when I began this blog. Here is a cupcake. Pick a flavour. 

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Is something good thus right? Bad: wrong? The “right” thing is always the “good” thing, right? 
Will smiling more convince yourself of it?
"Be"? "Self"? lol @ the infinite number of questions this one poses… 

Is something good thus right? Bad: wrong? The “right” thing is always the “good” thing, right? 

Will smiling more convince yourself of it?

"Be"? "Self"? lol @ the infinite number of questions this one poses… 

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